people make magic with their hands
how easy
we forget
this
is a place made for falling
i want
so i turn all my life over into dissaray
and i wait
like i don't know why i didn't do it
let me tell you a secret
i am an empty vessel
and i don't allow
if you had venom pouring from your skin i'd kiss it sweet as long as i got to taste you
there's metal in my mouth do you hear it screaming, there are tires screeching and they are all tracing fault lines
there was an experiment that went wrong and i couldn't leave the lab
they left the door open but stopped calling. do you see
i make people give up
there is a knife i keep in my bed just in case i want to tear the skin open and fix my heart from the inside
you're across from me, we're lying on my old balcony and you say, "pick a star", and i do
you postpone living because you think it is a finite thing
i took my potential and buried her
i have made peace with our parting mother,
why the hell do you come to check up on her like she's still alive
why don't you care that i am?
If i did everything right
what if i still didn;t love myself?
or worse, what if i did?